Hello. F20,121 lbs, 147 cm. This took a lot of courage but here I am. In fact, this is the only place I can share all of this because in the environment I grew up in, everyone else thinks I'm either an ungrateful bish who is inconsiderate of others who don't have enough food in their table or someone who's just "too young" to even think about losing weight.
Back in 2013, I started to gain weight because of unhealthy eating habits and I was made fun of because of it. It really affected my self esteem and got depressed. Since then, all I think about is losing weight. And finally in 2020, I decided to start my weight loss journey with IF and CICO. Which I got in trouble for because in my family, losing weight - specifically fasting or "not eating enough" was equivalent to getting a trip to the hospital. My mother once said to me that - the "fatter" you are the more healthier" you'll be. I stopped working out because it's so uncomfortable and stressful when my family is around all the time. Plus, I get so busy with college. I remember just breaking down in the bathroom for not being able to follow the workout routine. So I gave up.
It was gaining 22 lbs. more after and seeing "overweight" in my BMI that made me decide to start again this year. This time - no turning back. Being able to wear my old clothes again mattered more than their opinions. My goal weight is to be at least 93 lbs. which isn't too small for my height.
Now, I'm only doing IF and CICO. So far, I lost 7 lbs. which is such a great achievement for me. But sometimes I do get guilty because what if I do end up in the hospital...
If you're still reading up to this lengthy point thank you! Any tips and advice is highly appreciated. We can definitely reach our own goals one day at a time.
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