advice tips: starting a weight loss journey please help

i’ve gained sm weight back after losing over 50+ pounds i went from 175 or more to 118 now during summer i gained a lot of weight back i’m too scared to step on the scale. i need some advice on how to have self control and to lose weight… i honestly think i may have a ED (eating disorder) i use to starve basically now i over eat i may even binge eat i’m not so sure i just need help i wanna be thin again😭😭😭 info about me: F 17 5’6 current weight idk