Struggling with consistency and motivation

Hey guys, I’m really struggling to find motivation to lose weight and keeping consistent. Every day I tell myself “okay tomorrow we start losing” but it’s never begin.

About two years ago I lose 10kg/22pounds in six months but I have no idea how I did it, and I gained it plus back. I don’t really exercise outside of work cause I make excuses not to use my time to do it, and my work is relatively active where I rack up at least 10,000 steps in a shift (4x a week).

I also struggle with meal planning and feeling obligated to finish food I cook and serve. I just don’t know how to reduce anything or any basic meals. I just want to lose weight for my health and so I don’t hate myself.